Random Ramblings

I was just sitting here in my room listening to some music trying to fend off another bout of depression, and got to thinking about stuff. Thinking about life in general, mind racing around all over, bouncing around all over the place. So if your interested to know what was going through my mind tonight, go ahead and read, its not gonna be anything important but I thought I'd put it up just to kill some time.

Let me start by saying that I have lost all faith in society as a whole. In my short 22 years I have been through a lot. Some people may read this and think thats nothing compared to what I've been through and that may be true, so if you don't wanna hear about it feel free to click that little red X in the top right corner of your screen. I'm not here to gain pitty from anyone, I'm just expressing my feelings, thats what blogs are for right?

The first thing I want to talk about is hate. I don't understand why there is so much hate in this country and in the world. Lets discuss this country alone for a minute. Whenever I see hatred, or hear someone talking bad about someone else, or see the politicians trying to make a law to keep certain people down, as some would say, the first thing that comes to mind is the Declaration of Independence. Or have we all forgotten about that document? Let me quote one line from it:

"We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness."

I believe if we all listened to that and stilled believe in that, we would all be much happier. What good does it do you to waste your energy and time on hating someone else. Why do you care who they are or what they do? The only time you should be concerned with someone elses actions and person is when they are directly affecting you. Now when I read that line I see many things today that blatantly disregard and defy that statement, no, defy our Declaration of Independence. It started with the slaves. If we believe that all men are created equal how did slavery every come about? But thats history, lets not beat a dead horse anymore than we have to. But if we look at today's laws and society, we see many contradictions to that.

First one that I want to talk about, of course, is the fact that there is so much controversy and hatred over homosexuality. Lets be real people. If some guy is laying in bed with another guy, does it really make that much difference in your life? How is that directly affecting you? It's not. So get over it and let it go. What right do you have to prevent someone from thier pursuit of happiness. Thats all it is when you boil it down. And for you Bible thumpers, I have nothing against you. I don't try to tell you how to live your life. If you want to preach the word of God and devote yourself to Him, thats fine. Im very happy for you that you found something that you can be that passionate about and devote your life to. I wish more people would find something to occupy their idle time with. However, it is a choice. Preach to people who want to be preached to. Don't go and throw your beliefs on everyone you see. Not everyone believes the same thing. Also, how can you spew so much hate towards homosexuality? Isn't the word of God to love? God is the Creator is he not? So he created everything on Earth? Good. Then he created homosexuality too.

Another touchy subject in the spotlight right now is gay marriage. Im not a big supporter of gay marriage, even if it were legalized I don't believe that I would ever get legally married. I don't believe in needing a paper to tell me that I love someone and my life is devoted to them. And what is this whole mess about gay marriage destroying the sanctity of marriage? Wake up people. Look at the divorce rate. Does that seem very sanctified to you? Very few people will only marry once and stay married for life. This is no secret. If marriage is so sacred why are divorces even allowed? Im a supporter of choice, not of gay marriage. We shouldn't have to have new laws to legalize gay marriage. Marriage should just be the union between two people. Thats it. It doesn't need to be any more specific than that. If two people want to get married, go for it. Wether it be man and woman, or man and man, or woman and woman. Who cares. Who is it hurting? Let people pursue their happiness.

As far as gay couples raising kids, good. All these kids stuck in orphanages and foster homes, let them have a real family. They shouldn't be punished for their parents not wanting to handle the responsibility. There have been many children raised by gay couples that have grown up to be well adjusted human beings, unlike most of the world. They will be taught to love, and care for their fellow human, not to hate them and judge them.

Now me being a trucker and gay is something that I deal with every day, not that I'm the only one. There are plenty of other gay truck drivers, but most are afraid of what might happen if anyone finds out. Actually, thats true in general not just in trucking. Many gay men and women will live their whole life pretending to be straight. They know inside who they are, but they live in fear of what would happen if they told anyone. Its a damn shame that we grow up in a world where we live in fear. I am very thankful for the parents that I have, of course its something they had to get used to, anyone would, but the majority of gay youth is afraid to tell their own parents. What kind of society is that when you can't talk to your own parents. They have good reason not to though. I know more than a few people who when telling their parents that they are gay, have been disowned, ridiculed, and even thrown out of their house. And to these parents all I can say is, "WHAT THE HELL!?" Sorry for my outburst, but come on. You are going to treat your own flesh and blood like that? You are the ones that should be recieving the hatred and ridicule. No. Scratch that. No one deserves it. You need to open your eyes and be educated.

But back to me for a second. I love my job as a truck driver. I am very thankful for every day that I get to climb in the truck and do something I love. Most people hate their jobs. To you people I say do something about it. You have a choice. As much as I love my job, I do it always with one eye in front of me and one eye looking behind me. I have not had any bad experiences yet, but I am well aware of the fact that the trucking industry right now is far from being a gay friendly career. I know people who have had some very bad experiences, one of them resulted in his death. Lets put everything else aside for a minute. If you want to talk bad about me, say all you want. Words don't hurt me and we do have a freedom of speech. So be my guest. Call me names, tell me I'm going to hell, tell me God hates me, I don't care, but is it really worth it for you to move it to physical violence? Everything else aside, the pain and anguish you will cause for that person and everyone around them, is it worth it for you to deal with the repercussions of your actions. I think once you get to that point you will realise you made a mistake, but then again hindsight is 20/20, right?

This is just a few things on my mind right now. I don't want to create a post that is too long and will take you all day to read. This is long enough I think. Everything else aside, like the unconstitutional laws we have made, just stop and think for a while. Lets all take a chance to refresh ourselves on what this country was founded on. Take a minute to read the Declaration of Independence, and the Constitution. You will realize how far we have strayed. Its really a sad state of affairs.

Live, Laugh, and Love!

Young Trucker

Declaration of Independence

Constitution